I am a writer. It's one of the few things I am completely confident about. Like the fact that I'm Black and female, me being a writer is an absolute fact. I don't want to be anything else, because I can't be anything else. I don't want to be a teacher (sorry Auntie) because I honestly can't see myself doing anything else with my life. You know how they ask celebrities, "If you weren't acting/singing/directing what would you be doing with your life?" I don't even allow myself to think about what else I could do with my life in case writing does not work out.
Coco Chanel said it best: "Success is often achieved by those who don't know that failure is inevitable." So now I'm applying for every screenwriting contest/internship/program I can find because the worse they can say is no. But if I don't even try, the answer is always no. This blog post was written because of a post written by Alex of "What Alex Writes" (this is happening a lot.) She wrote a post about how she applied for a scholarship and won! (Yay, Alex!) It inspired me to try, even if I doubt how high my chances are. I've lost out on a number of opportunities because I let fear get in my way. Well from now on, I'm going to stop that. I'm going to put myself out there (not like that) and take the good that has to come with the bad. Remember: there's always a 50% chance that they'll say yes. What do I have to lose?
I'm so late in reading this and I am so happy to see your new attitude. I, myself, need to apply for more scholarships... I'm in a lot of debt. Keep the blog up-to-date with info on your winnings!
ReplyDeleteIt's good that you know exactly what you wanna do... My mind has been changing a lot lately. smh
Also.. As soon as I get home, I'll read the MTV post. I soooo wish I had cable!