Decisions Decisions.

So for a while now, I've been kind of aimless. I've known what I want to do, but I didn't know how to achieve it. And then it was like the clouds parted and I had an epiphany and a string of good luck. I'm going to film school! I'm applying to the New York Film Academy, summer program. Hey, I'd love to do their two-year program, but I'm still a broke student. And money is tight. I wonder if they have a payment plan? Something to look into, I suppose. I like having a plan for my life. I have focus and direction. Oh happy day.

This brings me closer to one of my goals on my list. Yes, I made a list of things I want to accomplish in 10 years. And I'm starting right away. So glad, I get to tell my friends that I'm no longer Lynn from Girlfriends, now I'm... Well, I can't find a good analogy but you get it.

I have a new job and a new attitude. I hate to sound so corny, but it is what it is. Special thanks for the friends I have, because when I told them my good news they were so happy for me. I know that's what friends do, but I've had bad friends and they made me appreciate the good friends I have. I always wanted friends like the ones on the T.V. shows. You know: Saved by the Bell, Friends, Sex and the City. Somehow mine were like a horror show freakfest. No exaggeration.

And lastly: did anyone see the Bad Girls Club Reunion? Flo is crazy, but I still like her. She lets people in her circle too quick, and come one, Natalie is NOT to be trusted. Still love Portia and... Can we get LaLa to do the next reunion shows? Perez is too catty for me.

P.S. when Flo told him that that's why he got punched by will.i.am, I almost died.

I Miss The Radio

Close your eyes and think back. Think back to a time when you could turn on any station on the radio and listen to it for HOURS. Remember that? I remember when Power 105 first started and I had my Walkman, and it was commercial free R&B.... Good times. I miss Monica (it's just one of them days), Brandy (when she still had braids and a sitcom), Destiny's Child (with 3 or 4 members, I'm not choosy), Ginuwine, Ashanti (yeah I may be her only fan, but I admit that), Aaliyah (R.I.P), Missy, Faith Evans, and R. Kelly. I know, Kells has issues but his 90's and early 2000's music was the business. Can y'all come back real quick? I CAN'T LISTEN TO RIHANNA, LADY GAGA, and all those Cash Money artists all day.

Now it seems like I can't find anything to listen to! I mean a few songs and then I have to change the station. It's like I can barely get comfortable on my bed before I hear some Gucci Mane or (well I just went blank because I DON'T KNOW ANY OF THE NEW PEOPLE OUT THERE). I can't take it, anymore. And there's nobody talking on the radio anymore. Wendy, How you doin'? Can you come back to radio, it's so boring now. Maybe I'll check out some Sirius radio stations, or start my own. Yeah, I like to listen to myself talk, and what?

P.S. The Bad Girls Reunion is on tomorrow. Yaaaaaay! Portia and Flo both get at Natalie (and she's still spitting on people.) This is why I can't respect her, because real bad girls use their words or fists, NOT their salivary glands.

Keyshia Cole's In Labor...So I Can Look Forward To A New Album Soon, Right?

Yes, according to some gossip blog, Monica tweeted that Keyshia Cole is in labor. Yes! Finally! No, I don't know her. No, I don't have any money in a birth pool. I just need some new music. I have been a Keyshia fan from day one. When she changed her mind, I was there. When she had red dye dripping down her neck, when she should've cheated, I was rooting for her. I watched the reality show (I never watched Frankie and Neffie, I had to draw the line somewhere. I mean Neffie named her son Jaden We Love You Cole. I mean really.) So Keyshia, please tell me you used the time to write some more lyrics. Please do not fade into obscurity, just hold on girl. Keri Hilson and Melanie Fiona can't do it alone. Rihanna is trying to take over the world. Heeeeelp!!!!!!! I'm out.

I Need A Black Sitcom!!

I do, I need one sooooo bad. At this point it doesn't even have to be a good one. I mean that would be preferable, but it's not a necessity. A Different World is on TV One, so that's what prompted this. So, that's about it. I need a black sitcom. So Mara Brock Akil, Yvette Lee Bowser, Felicia D. Henderson... Come on! Help a sister out! I'm done.

I Said I Wasn't Gonna Do It Again

I hate new T.V. shows. I especially hate the good ones. That doesn't make sense, right? Hear me out. You get caught up in a show, you love the show, you watch faithfully, and what happens? They leave you. Some executive decides that because the numbers aren't working my new show gets the axe. Good shows and some not-so-good shows have gotten cancelled and I promised myself that I would NOT get caught up again. And yet… I found myself watching two great shows. Life Unexpected on the CW and The Deep End on ABC.

ABC has hurt me so badly over the years and I swore I wouldn’t watch any new shows. My best friend has been trying to get me to watch The Good Wife for a while but I keep resisting and my brother has tried to get me to watch V, but I just couldn’t. And then The Deep End snuck up on me. There I was, innocently eating the last of my dinner and Wheel of Fortune had just ended. I was waiting for that Grey’s Anatomy/Private Practice crossover event and the show just started. I was going to turn but it sucked me in. And Mechad Brooks is so fine, I was just supposed to watch until he showed up and now… Now I’m DVRing it in advance and I can’t help it. I keep telling myself that I’ll be strong. I can handle it if it gets cancelled. But I can’t go through another heartbreak, ABC, I just can’t. I mean after Big Shots, Dirty Sexy Money, Eli Stone, Life After Mars, I thought I could handle anything. But I am woman enough to say Samantha Who? nearly broke me. And now Ugly Betty? These shows win AWARDS! Emmys. Golden Globes. I thought I was safe with Ugly Betty. I didn’t start watching until the third season, I mean OPRAH watches this show. America Ferrera and Selma Hayek talked about the show with her. I figured I had a good four more seasons. Sigh.

Life Unexpected. Great show. Great cast. Great storyline. But a network that can make remakes of shows that ended barely ended ten years ago is not to be trusted. And can cancel Everybody Hates Chris? Notice: Girlfriends and The Game weren’t stellar but I still loved them. I wanted The Game to stay on because it was the last Black show on television. Girlfriends…well what can you expect after you let Jill Marie Jones “Toni Childs” leave? I have nothing else to say.

P.S. If Flo gets kicked off Bad Girls Club...I may boycott. But good for Annie for finally acting like a Bad Girl and not like a Real World reject. Yeah and Kendra let anyone spit on me...I'm not just going home, I'm going to jail. I promise. Oh and Kate, I really can't stand her. After you've been spit on, you decide to spit on someone else? One word: Nasty.

My Guiltiest Pleasure

I watch the Bad Girls Club. There, I said it. And not only do I watch the Bad Girls Club, I love every minute of it. This was not like my Flava of Love phase (where I watched with barely concealed confusion and disgust.) Nope, I love The Bad Girls Club and I watch it because these girls are insane. And they're not in this house battling over some washed up rapper (sorry Flav) or trying to win a modeling contract. Nope, they're just there to be bad and the audience is there to guess who gets kicked off first for fighting. (Hey, Portia, I miss you.)

This is the fourth season of the show and while last season's girls were my favorites...This season's girls have grown on me. Mostly like a fungus but they've grown. Here are the girls I like: Portia, Flo, Natalie, and Annie. Yep, that's it. I know Portia's not there anymore but she was my favorite. Portia, Flo, and Natalie are all loud, in your face, I'll knock you out kinda girls. if they have something to say they say it to your face. Amber and Kate, well, not so much. And Annie well, I'm not actually sure why she's not on The Real World. She's not loud, she's not mean, vindictive, she's not bad at all. But then again maybe she has a slow fuse and it takes her a few weeks to heat up.

So, as far as I know, The Bad Girls Club isn't scripted. Well last season, the girls said the producers told Tiffany to play the peacemaker... Anyway, it seems these girls are honest, too honest. Which brings me to Kendra... How can you actually say that you're not sending Natalie home after she punches you in the face because you need her connections? It's one thing to use someone, but to say it out loud to all the girls in the house? And Natalie...don't buy your friends. They don't last and there's no warrantee. And really, Kendra, Miles from Moesha? I can't deal. I keep expecting Moesha and Niecy to interrupt their hot tub time with a lecture about safe sex.

Coming up: Flo and Amber get into a fight and I pray Flo wails on her. Here's hoping one of the former Bad Girls stop by. I wanna see Kate go toe to toe with the original Boston, last season's Whitney.

A New Decade? Wow!

Happy New Year! Wow it's been about 4 months. Bad bad bad. I know! I was inspired to write this post by Alex of Alex's Blog-A-Zine. So if you read this, thanks Alex! Anyway, I did see I Can Do Bad All By Myself and I was shocked by how not bad it was. Sorry, that's the best compliment I can give Tyler Perry, I tried and that's all I got. And I downloaded Whitney Houston's CD and I like it...Because it's Whitney and I'm a fan. But I miss old Whitney. You know the one that hit those crazy notes. Her voice is kinda husky and throaty on her new album. But I'll take what I can.


So since its 2010, I've noticed a few crazes that make me wish for things from 10 years ago. Like this whole Twilight/Vampire Diaries/True Blood craze. Does anyone else miss Buffy? You know the Vampire Slayer? When most vampires were bad and Buffy killed them with her awesome skills and witty banter? Aah the good ol' days.


Now when it comes to music I am all about Trey Songz. But remember when R. Kelly was the king of R&B? What happened Kells? Oh, yeah you peed on a few girls and we all turned on you. And in turn it seems he may have lost it after Trapped in the Closet Part 97. And what's up with Usher? I mean does anyone remember 8701 and Confessions? Now he's just dropped off. Way off. And where did all the girl groups go? I miss TLC, Xscape, En Vogue, SWV and Destiny's Child. And don't get me started on boy bands. I was never into Pretty Ricky or Day 26, but if I didn't love me some B2K... I can't stand Omarion, though. I wonder why?


Well these are just my ramblings. I've gotta go, there's a Buffy marathon on and I'm missing my tween years. Love ya and enjoy the New Year!